Marcel Proust | j'étais touché par ce que ces chrysanthèmes avaient moins d'éphémère que de relativement durable

Odette avait maintenant, dans son salon, au commencement de l'hiver, des chrysanthèmes énormes et d'une variété de couleurs comme Swann jadis n'eût pu en voir chez elle. Mon admiration pour eux – quand j'allais faire à Mme Swann une de ces tristes visites où, lui ayant de par mon chagrin, retrouvé toute sa mystérieuse poésie de mère de cette Gilberte à qui elle dirait le lendemain : « Ton ami m'a fait une visite » – venait sans doute de ce que, rose pâle comme la soie Louis XV de ses fauteuils, blanc de neige comme sa robe de chambre en crêpe de Chine, ou d'un rouge métallique comme son samovar, ils superposaient à celle du salon une décoration supplémentaire, d'un coloris aussi riche, aussi raffiné, mais vivante et qui ne durerait que quelques jours. Mais j'étais touché par ce que ces chrysanthèmes avaient moins d'éphémère que de relativement durable par rapport à ces tons, aussi roses ou aussi cuivrés, que le soleil couché exalte si somptueusement dans la brume des fins d'après-midi de novembre et qu'après les avoir aperçus avant que j'entrasse chez Mme Swann, s'éteignant dans le ciel, je retrouvais prolongés, transposés dans la palette enflammée des fleurs. Comme des feux arrachés par un grand coloriste à l'instabilité de l'atmosphère et du soleil, afin qu'ils vinssent orner une demeure humaine, ils m'invitaient, ces chrysanthèmes, et malgré toute ma tristesse à goûter avidement pendant cette heure du thé les plaisirs si courts de novembre dont ils faisaient flamboyer près de moi la splendeur intime et mystérieuse.

A l'Ombre des Jeunes Filles en Fleurs

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Notre voiture descendait vite les boulevards, les avenues, dont les hôtels en rangée, rose congélation de soleil et de froid, me rappelaient mes visites chez Mme Swann doucement éclairées par les chrysanthèmes en attendant l'heure des lampes.

La Prisonnière

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Henry James | the doing by the woman of the thing that gave her away

Once more, as a man conscious of having known many women, he could assist, as he would have called it, at the recurrent, the predestined phenomenon, the thing always as certain as sunrise or the coming round of Saints’ days, the doing by the woman of the thing that gave her away. She did it, ever, inevitably, infallibly—she couldn’t possibly not do it. It was her nature, it was her life, and the man could always expect it without lifting a finger. This was HIS, the man’s, any man’s, position and strength—that he had necessarily the advantage, that he only had to wait, with a decent patience, to be placed, in spite of himself, it might really be said, in the right. Just so the punctuality of performance on the part of the other creature was her weakness and her deep misfortune—not less, no doubt, than her beauty. It produced for the man that extraordinary mixture of pity and profit in which his relation with her, when he was not a mere brute, mainly consisted; and gave him in fact his most pertinent ground of being always nice to her, nice about her, nice FOR her. She always dressed her act up, of course, she muffled and disguised and arranged it, showing in fact in these dissimulations a cleverness equal to but one thing in the world, equal to her abjection: she would let it be known for anything, for everything, but the truth of which it was made. That was what, precisely, Charlotte Stant would be doing now; that was the present motive and support, to a certainty, of each of her looks and motions. She was the twentieth woman, she was possessed by her doom, but her doom was also to arrange appearances, and what now concerned him was to learn how she proposed. He would help her, would arrange WITH her to any point in reason; the only thing was to know what appearance could best be produced and best be preserved. Produced and preserved on her part of course; since on his own there had been luckily no folly to cover up, nothing but a perfect accord between conduct and obligation.

They stood there together, at all events, when the door had closed behind their friend, with a conscious, strained smile and very much as if each waited for the other to strike the note or give the pitch. The young man held himself, in his silent suspense—only not more afraid because he felt her own fear. She was afraid of herself, however; whereas, to his gain of lucidity, he was afraid only of her. Would she throw herself into his arms, or would she be otherwise wonderful? She would see what he would do—so their queer minute without words told him; and she would act accordingly. But what could he do but just let her see that he would make anything, everything, for her, as honourably easy as possible? Even if she should throw herself into his arms he would make that easy—easy, that is, to overlook, to ignore, not to remember, and not, by the same token, either, to regret. This was not what in fact happened, though it was also not at a single touch, but by the finest gradations, that his tension subsided. “It’s too delightful to be back!” she said at last; and it was all she definitely gave him—being moreover nothing but what anyone else might have said. Yet with two or three other things that, on his response, followed it, it quite pointed the path, while the tone of it, and her whole attitude, were as far removed as need have been from the truth of her situation. The abjection that was present to him as of the essence quite failed to peep out, and he soon enough saw that if she was arranging she could be trusted to arrange. Good—it was all he asked; and all the more that he could admire and like her for it.

The particular appearance she would, as they said, go in for was that of having no account whatever to give him—it would be in fact that of having none to give anybody—of reasons or of motives, of comings or of goings. She was a charming young woman who had met him before, but she was also a charming young woman with a life of her own. She would take it high—up, up, up, ever so high. Well then, he would do the same; no height would be too great for them, not even the dizziest conceivable to a young person so subtle. The dizziest seemed indeed attained when, after another moment, she came as near as she was to come to an apology for her abruptness.

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